I was doing ok today. Not great, but not horrid.
I get home and sitting in my mailbox are two letters. Both from the same place, both unsolicited "junk" mail.
One was for me, one for Wash.
They were soliciting for Health Insurance.
"WASH- Did YOU know you can now be covered for health insurance through the Affordable Care Act aka ObamaCare? Well, you can! Give us money! ...."
And just... getting mail for him today was shitty. Most days it does not bother me at all anymore. Not today.
Especially getting THIS mail.
Only 5 years too late.
I tried going for a walk. I even ran into one of my Rabbis out with his baby daughter for a stroll as well. That helped distract me some. But.
Now my brain is stuck on the "what if" line of thoughts. And that is a very bad place for me to go down.
I am so mad at the world/universe/whatever right now. It all just hurts so badly, and I am just so fucking MAD.
I can't even have a good cry because my asthma is too shitty today to let me breathe in-between sobs.
I just want him back. I know it is impossible. Not improbable, but impossible. And that hurts.